Lately I’ve felt so lazy to write. Because of everything that’s going on in my life. There is a lot of chaos in my life right now and I honestly feel like everything is falling apart. But I promised myself I would write everyday no matter what. So my posts have not been incredible but I’m putting myself out there and I’m writing. This is what I want to do and I hope I will become a better writer one day. For now you will have to read my failed attempts at putting my thoughts into words. I cringe looking back at some of my posts but I’m not erasing them…you will get the raw version of me. After all, this is myhonestblog.com so you deserve my honesty. I’ve also come to a point in my life where I’ve gotten so tired of not sticking to my promises and I want so badly to get it right this time and be consistent with what I’ve told myself I would do.
I downloaded an audio book yesterday about writing and I thought about how long it takes to really master this craft. It’s intimidating, to say the least, given the fact that I wasn’t much of a reader as a child. And I know most writers were avid readers throughout their lives. I sometimes feel like it’s a futile endeavor to start now and feel like giving up the idea. But as I said I want to know how it feels not to give up and pursue something wholeheartedly. And I know it sounds cliché but I feel I could bring some value with my writing one day. This is my aspiration and I’m embarking on this journey despite my circumstances, my self-defeating thoughts and any criticism I may encounter. I’m not claiming to be anything, I’m just a human being honestly trying to create something out of nothing.
So if you’re interested in seeing someone learn and fail and be honest you can stick with me and I sincerely hope it will be worth your time.